Physical pain

It is quite some time since last post now, sorry. Or no, I'm not sorry, I apologise way too much and this isn't anything to even feel sorry for! The truth is that I don't have time to even breath. Not because I am so extremely busy, I am not super busy, but busy enough.
I am tired 24/7. I don't have any energy at all, 0. I go to school, I socialize, I do those 'normal things' but the things teachers say go in one ear and straightly out the other as all I think about is food, weight. calories etc. Especially now as things are tough, picking myself back up from a slight relapse.

Despite from that, my whole entire body aches. It hurts, really hurts. I've had ECG taken and everything was normal there, except some little thing that the doctor was going to get some specialists to look at ( it is probably nothing). The doctor also came to the conclusion that I probably suffer from inflammated muscles in my overbody (ribcase, breast, back etc) and it gets even worse in school. Sometimes all I want is to cry of pain. But I can't, I've cried too many times in school (haha!).

Oh well I guess I have to fight through this as well as everything else.
I don't really mind physical pain, I actually prefer it instead of mental pain, but both at the same time? You've got to be kidding me!

I'm not complaining, even though it comes of that way. I just really needed to write this and went. It feels much better to just let things out than holding them inside! And yeah, I am documenting my own recovery, so why not write what I am thinking and going through?

Xx
-M
P.s enjoy this wonderful pic of me and ma Lil'bro