Nicecream

You have probably heard about homemade healthy easy made fruit ice cream and probably even tried it too. It is tasty, isn't it?
If you haven't tried it, here is how I made mine this evening:

Mango Banana Nicecream
Serves 2

1 chopped up, frozen mango
1 frozen banana

Put in a mixer and mix till smooth.

Top off with what ever you want. Frozen berries are really good for topping or even to be mixed in with the banana and mango. Adding some peanut butter is also delish!

Make it look pretty and then TADAH you've made your own ice cream in within 5 minutes! 

Enjoy Xx
-M

Day 12

Post 1 thing you've aten today

This was my lunch. Two toasts. One with butter (!), ham(!), cheese (!) and cucumberslices. The other one with Prime (Norwegian spread that is made of milkproducts) and my daily glass of milk on the side :)
Fearfood Friday? huh, nope, not for me. For me, everyday is a fearfood day!

-M

P.S. this is my Instagram account if you are interested (hint, hint ;) )

Day 6

 What was your favorite meal before your ED? What is your favorite meal now?

It was bacon wrapped chicken with pepper cream cheese sauce made by my mom. Now it is steamed vegetables… I know it’s not a meal, but I can’t come up with anything at the moment.

My food

Recently I started to upload photos of my meals on instagram (margrets_recovery). Here are some of them:

Misleading health facts

I’m so tired of people talking out of their ass about nutrition. It is misleading and leads many to an eating disorder.  You’ve heard that low carb diet is healthy?  Well, it’s NOT!! 

By cutting out carbs you will automatically eat more cholesterol. If you eat more than what you need of cholesterol, it starts to build up in your arteries (Arteries are the blood vessels that carry blood away from the heart.) This is called hardening of the arteries, or atherosclerosis. To understand what happens, think about how a clog forms in the pipe under a kitchen sink. Like the buildup of grease in the pipe, the buildup of cholesterol narrows your arteries and makes it harder for blood to flow through them. It reduces the amount of blood that gets to your body tissues, including your heart. This can lead to serious problems, including heart attack and stroke.

Our body needs carbohydrates. It needs enough of every nutrient!

Eating little bit of everything is the most healthy thing you can do! Balanced diet it the healthiest. By that I don’t mean getting your carbs form mcDonald’s, but from for an example whole grain bread. There are healthy carbs, and there’s unhealthy carbs. There is healthy fat, and there is unhealthy fat. There are healthy and unhealthy types of everything. Full fat products aren’t necessary unhealthy, in fact they are often healthier, but it depends on if the fats are saturated or unsaturated.

Don’t believe everything media tells you! Not half of what they say is completely true. You have to be extremely critical when reading about nourishment!
And remember, calories are only an energy unit! It doesn’t hurt you, it only gives you energy to go through the day! Stay strong ❤❤❤

*Foodgasm*

I haven't been as hungry as I've been today in a looooong time! It almost scares me how hungry I am haha. But I know that my body is craving the energy it needs, and face it, it haven't been getting much of it lately, due to my latest relapse, WHICH I'm almost over now! :-D

I hate relapses, but I love food! It's devilish how fantastic food can be, both in appearances and in taste! The pictures speak for themselves.

*Foodgasm* Here's what I ate for dinner, not nearly as fancy as those pictures, but it was tasty though!

Spaghetti with Swedish-meatball sauce

Born again

Today I haven't done much else than math and well, eat ;)
For breakfast I made banana and Cocos pancakes, for lunch I had leftover wok from yesterday's dinner and for midday snack I had chocolate cake which is one of my worst fearfoods, but I'm still alive ain't I? So I guess it wasn't too dangerous :)
For dinner I'm having Swedish meatballs and spaghetti, also a fearfood of mine, but I guess I'll survive that too :D
I'm feeling really motivated atm and it feels like I'm being born again!!
Love it!
-M

When a mental disorder takes over your life

When a mental disorder takes over your life, you just simply got to fight to get it back, because eventually it will take your life away. Maybe in the moment you are depressed that sounds pretty great. The thought of something taking your life away seems relieving. But in the moment you are NOT depressed, you can´t think of not being alive. Depression is like most other mental disorders, a disorder which you can recover from.  If you try hard enough, you will recover and learn to love life again. And when you’re recovered you will be thankful for being alive, I can promise you that.

When I was at my worst, I had pre-heart attack symptoms. I had chest pains and felt like there was a ton lying on my chest. I had constant back pain in my upper back, toothache and pain in my left arm, which are all known as pre-heart attack symptoms. I got help in time. Thankfully! I can‘t believe if I had gotten a heart attack, only 17 years old! 17 year old and a heart attack don‘t simply fit with each other.

An eating disorder CAN take your life away. No, you are not allowed to think that „nope, that won‘t happen to me, I‘m not sick enough“ because that´s bullshit. If you don‘t fight back, it WILL take your life away! And once it does, you can‘t get it back because, well, you´re dead. Everyone has their own struggles and have to fight through the day. If you want to live, you have got to fight twice as hard as them, because here we are talking about life or death.

 If you restrict, you can lose your life, even though you are categorized as “normal weighted”. If your body lacks nutrients and food in general over a long time, you can get serious complications which can lead to a tragic death. Reports of the 1981 hunger strike by political prisoners against the British presence in Northeast Ireland indicate that 10 individuals died after periods of between 46 and 73 days without food. Think! 46-73 days, that’s a pretty short time! You won’t survive much longer than that, and chances are that you won’t even survive that long!

My mom told me about a woman who worked out at her gym. She was there 24/7, usually on the skiing machine or the treadmill. She was thin, but not as thin as the pictures that come up on Google when you search for Anorexia (apropos, very few people who suffer from anorexia look that way). Nobody was fascinated or admired her of her stamina for running for hours. They looked at her and thought “poor lady”. Eventually they had to ban her from the gym. She was forced into several treatments, but once she was “better”, she came to the gym and was back to where she began, running or skiing for hours. Few months later, she died. She wasn't as thin as the anorexia pictures on the internet, but her body couldn't bare the restriction and over exercise any more. It gave up.  

That could be you. Think about it. Is this disorder gonna win, or are YOU going to win this fight? I bet on you.

Lunch time

It's lunch time now and I actually brought food with me! And I'm eating it! I'm quite impressed since Ana doesn't like food and eating at school, but I didn't let her control me. It's MY body and MY decisions, not hers.
Todays lunch consists of a wholegrain non wheat bread with creme frés (?), an egg and a bit oregano and lemon pepper. For dessert I'm having 2 pieces of my raw vegan brownie (recipe in an earlier post)

Raw vegan brownies recipe

Today I made those incredibly fantastic yummy healthy brownies:

Ingredients:

• 2 cups pecans OR walnuts
• ¾ cup cacao powder
• pinch sea salt
• 2 cups medjool dates
• ¼ cacao nibs (optional)

Method:

1. In the food processor, process the pecans until they are a roughly ground flour texture.
2. Add cacao powder and salt and process again to combine (make sure the lid is on properly so you don’t breathe in the cacao powder cloud).
3. Add medjool dates and combine until a ball forms.
4. If you want a more fluffy, airy brownie rather than a dense one, process the pecans less and medjool dates left, stopping before a ball forms.
5. In a small pan or container, press the brownie mixture down. Sprinkle cacao nibs on top.
6. Freeze for a few hours to harden and set.
7. Store in the fridge or freezer (I like the freezer better).

Notes:

For a fudgier brownie, try adding 1-2 Tbsp of liquid sweeter such as maple syrup, agave syrup or coconut nectar.

I didn't process the nuts enough, that's why they're so "chunky" hehe. But they are yummy as well :-D

Breakfast

My breakfast this morning:

• Lactose free yogurt, since I'm lactose intolerant at the moment due to lack of nurishment over long time.
• 1 tbs Sugarfree apple and raspberry jam
• 6 chopped up fresh dates

After I tasted it, I drizzled some cinnamon over it and it was YUMMY! Definitely going to make this more often!
The beauty of this is that you can use whatever you like! You don't have to use dates, or this kind of jam. If you like apples, then you use apples! You like blueberry jam? then you use blueberry jam! 

Yogurt goes with almost anything. I LOVE IT!

"Just get better"

When will people understand that people with eating disorders can't "just eat", "just stop counting calories"or "just stop weighing yourself". It isn't that easy. It's much more complicated than that.

You're afraid of spiders? well get over it. Oh you can't?  why can't you just hold a spider? it's not that hard, just do it.
No exactly! you would freak out because you are afraid of spiders, and therefor won't hold one.

An eating disorder is similar to that. We struggling with an ED are afraid of food. Food and nutrition freaks us out. It's not something we made up. It's something our brain has done to us with out us knowing. It's a mess up with chemicals in our brains. It's a disorder, a disease.

You wouldn't say to a cancer patient :" just get better" like he/she would be able to control it. The same goes for eating disorders and other mental disorders. We can't "just get better".
-M